Thankful
I have a lot to be thankful for this year, moreso than most years. It has been a time of life-altering transitions, feeling way in over my head most of the time and wondering how things would pan out.
Life has been mostly uncomfortable and invariably qualifies as an adventure (something I dare say is often over-romanticized as an outside observer, but saying that doesn’t incline me to strip it from its merits altogether). It’s the danger of taking a risk, and making a film has been probably the biggest risk I’ve gone through, dare I say.
But, lest I forget, I didn’t make the film by myself.
I find myself keenly aware of how many people believed that Greyscale was something worth investing their time, effort, and money into, and without them, I wouldn’t have a nearly finished film that has brought me to a new city with a new job that puts food on my family’s table. I don’t think I could ever thank my first cast and crew enough, and I pray that somehow I’ll find unique ways to repay you all for investing in me.
I’m also mindful of how much love and support my family has shown me throughout this time. They’ve been my biggest cheerleaders, confidants, investors (personally, emotionally, spiritually, and financially), and without them, I probably would have been discouraged enough by a few roadblocks to give up on the budding abilities that I have been blessed with, causing me to instead seek a life of comfort and safety that would have landed me squarely in the realm of “I wish I had…” by the time I grew old.
It’s reflective moments like these that remind me I can’t turn back now, or else it would be a betrayal of what they’ve done for me… and I can’t live with that.
- I’m grateful for all of my colleagues in this new chapter of my life, and all of the opportunities to daily be creative.
- I’m grateful that Sarah has a new job at a place with great hours, good pay, and nice co-workers.
- I’m grateful that my parents are here in town this weekend and were able to share Thanksgiving dinner with Sarah, myself, and the Ballards.
- I’m grateful Sarah is such an awesome cook.
- I’m grateful for Sarah in general.
- I’m grateful for a loving God that provides for me, even when I don’t see it.
- I’m grateful for loving parents that care for me and have made countless sacrifices so I could get a leg up.
- I’m grateful that I have had an opportunity to make a feature film, even though I complain about how long it’s taking to wrap up.
- I’m grateful that doors opened and I’m already directing a second feature film.
I could go on, but I want this post to be a reminder for me to not forget what I’m thankful for.
vcD,
-R
